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I got a letter last Thursday telling me I had a meeting with my manager on Monday that's just been about my contract which is up for renew this month. I went to the meeting where I was told that my contract isn't going to be renewed and on the 30th of this month I am no longer employed by the company. I was told I could work to the end of this month and be paid the annual leave I have owing me or I could leave and not get the annual leave. I've opted to stay as I need the money with the holidays coming up in a few weeks.
I'm so gutted to of lost my job it was the one thing that got me out of bed when my depression was forcing me to do the oposite. Plus it was helping my depression as it gave me a goal now . . . well all I feel like doing is staying in bed and not getting out of it again.
I don't know what to do I know I should see the doctor about getting signed off sick due to the depression but that's not going to help me get another job. I've already started looking but there isn't the jobs out there and when there are there are about 50 people going for it . . . plus there is also an economical downfall at the moment which means no new jobs.
I wanted to post about it on Monday after I got the news . . . but I was far too angry to do it.
I was told that it wasn't to do with me personally I was just the easiest person to let go seeing as the office is over staffed at the moment as we don't have the contracts to do yet until next year plus they are reshaping the way they do things here such as having people from payroll do some of the updating. I'm still angry about but there is nothing I can do about it. So I'm leaving at the end of the moonth and going to stuggle for money until I get a new job however long that takes seeing as I was unemployed before this for two and a half years almost.
All I can say is 9 months of hard work and long hours for what? What the fuck for hmm? to be told sorry but you've no longer got a job see ya! I'm just angry at the moment plus I have to sort out my claim for benift at the end of this month too which will be easy as I can now do it online.


All I can say now is that most of the things I wanted to do by the end of next year aren't going to be done apart from maybe quitting smoking.

Sorry I had to get it all out before I did something to myself.

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hardveneer
Nov. 21st, 2007 12:50 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear this, Sammy :( Best of luck finding new work <3
cleaninggirl
Nov. 21st, 2007 01:25 pm (UTC)
Thanks honey I hope I get something soon too <3
(Anonymous)
Nov. 24th, 2007 02:58 pm (UTC)
jagfan007linda@aol.com
Sammy i have trouble reading this due to the dark color and i want to be sure you get my message. your story makes me damn mad also. i am so sorry about your job. What i know about you, you are a good human being and deserve better. the depression worries me. Very normal under the situation you are in now. Are you on medication? i take lexapro for the same and it really helps. Depression is a chemical problem and can be helped with medications. i have taken off and on for years. Please be good to yourself and do not blame your self for what happened. After the anger cools the depression may get worse. this is normal. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Give your self sometime to heal. it is ok ot feel angry and depressed. it is what you do about it that matters but take your time to heal. god Bless. Linda Read
medland
Nov. 21st, 2007 01:02 pm (UTC)
Dude I'm so so sorry. :( I really hope you can find something soon. Sending you much love. xxxxx
cleaninggirl
Nov. 21st, 2007 01:24 pm (UTC)
Thanks Margi *hug* I hope I find something soon too
londonesque
Nov. 21st, 2007 01:30 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry Sammy, I hope things pick up for you soon *hugs*
cleaninggirl
Nov. 21st, 2007 01:37 pm (UTC)
Thanks Wendy *hug*
anadxof
Nov. 21st, 2007 06:28 pm (UTC)
I'm really sorry to hear that Sammy. But the worst thing you can do now is to fall into depression. I know it's hard and I'm sure you feel angry, but I also know you're strong and you're gonna get out of this soon. ♥ ♥
cleaninggirl
Nov. 21st, 2007 07:48 pm (UTC)
Thanks Edna, I'm battling with it and I'm trying to not let it win applying for jobs has helped me not fall into that trap for the moment but I know it's going to be a long road with many bumps.
huntress1013
Nov. 23rd, 2007 07:58 am (UTC)
That is really bad news Sammy, I am so sorry. Good luck on your job hunt and I hope everything also works out with your depression. The layoff certainly doesn't help to get a more positive perspective :-\
cleaninggirl
Nov. 23rd, 2007 08:44 am (UTC)
Thanks honey *hug* no it hasn't helped much but I am getting a better frame of mind now which is good but it's going to be a long bumby road to another job with lots of highs and lows.
(Anonymous)
Nov. 26th, 2007 11:14 am (UTC)
jaagfan007linda
The dark colors of your site make it hard to read hon. i amd i am sure other friends are concerned about how your week went. Why not share a bit with us about where your head is now? After the initial pissed ,off depression is normal and you already have enough of that. So kiddo, share what is happening and what you are feeling. Linda
cleaninggirl
Nov. 26th, 2007 01:06 pm (UTC)
Re: jaagfan007linda
Thanks for your comments Linda, I'm going to make a short post some time this week once I get everything straight in my head which I have been working on this last week. I'm doing better than I exspected and the depression isn't as bad as it was at the start of last week which is a good sign. I'll keep you updated with everything that is going on in my life with weekly posts here.
Hug
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